~ice fantasy~

AMV - Angelic Layer - Watch Me Shine

2007-01-28T01:28:00.001-08:00

watch this. it's cool. but the song is cooler. =)

2007-01-12T06:28:00.000-08:00

HEyzzz... It's my 180th post. That's cool. Anyway, today we had our sec 1 CCA showcase. It was OK. Like, not fun or anything, but just OK. Coz.... the committee got scolded. That sucked BIG TIME. And totally spoiled my mood. But i honestly dun think it's our fault. I mean, we ARE inexperienced. And their expectations are SOOO freakin' high.

Anyways, the past week hasnt been such a nice week for me. I still feel emo all the time. I just put up a smile and laugh when im in public. Like, u noe, a PUBLIC PERSONA (learnt that in lit lesson). Yupps, still feeling emo now. No difference. Hope 2moro will be a better day. Though i sincerely doubt so. Anyways, i dun expect anyone to read my posts or tag anymore. Bloggin is REALLY last century now. But im still gonna blog anyways, coz that's wad i like to do.

I like to write down how i feel. Or felt. I dunno. It just makes me feel better. I'd rather write stuff down than talk to ppl about it. That's just me. Anyways, if these few days i seem like, really mean to u or something, dun take it personally. I dont mean to offend you, it's just that im really emo. And NO, its not my period or anything. So dream on. Anyways, realli emo now. So stop reading and get your ass to bed. Nites. (NO, no sweet dreams, NONE.)

2007-01-08T02:09:00.000-08:00

HEYZZZ PPL!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm... today was pretty ok. Not much happened. Same old same old.
The teachers were ok. Can't believe Wan lao shi is teaching me chinese AGAIN. I AM SOOO GONNa DIE!!!! AAARRGGHH!!!!

Anyways, we finally got our timetable. It's really confusing, but you'll get the hang of it.
Hmmm... u noe, recently, i've found myself being emo for no reason. HOW CRAPPY IS THAT?!? But anyways, i blame the hormones. You know, when you're a teenager your hormones go haywire and all that.

Well... I saw the A Math textbook. WWHHHOOOAAA!!! LONGGGG way to go. Yupp, JIA YOU!!!!!! =)

2007-01-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. Yupps, changed my blogskin. The previous one was only used for Christmas.

Hmm... surprisingly, the past 3 days were cool. I mean, the drama thing was actualli kinda fun. We got Ms Judy. SHE ROCKS!!!! =D

Wad else... oh yeah, i have NO IDEA wad to bring on monday. Coz i haven't gotten the timetable yet. CAN U BELIEVE IT?!? Everybody else alreadi has it and we dont. This is.... this is.... CoOL. =P I mean, its true!!! We are UNIQUE. hahahha... kidding.

Anyways, the holidays are over. Yupps, so Jia You for this year. Lots of stuff are gonna happen- good and bad- but wadeva it is, pull through it. In the end, everything will turn out fine. Yupps, byezzzz. =)

2006-12-31T16:42:00.000-08:00

HEYZ PPL!!!!

I havent blogged in a LONG LONG time. CAN U BELIEVE IT?!? It's already a new year. HAhaha... i bet u wont believe it, but my family and i reached home TODAY, TODAY!!! At exactly 1.25am. MAN!!!!! I was SOOOOo tired.

SO anyways, enjoyed myself. AND I GOT YOU PPL GIFTS!!!! =)
See, i kept my word. =P
Hmm.... yupps, jia you for this year, kz??? bye byez!!!!

2006-12-25T17:06:00.000-08:00

HEYZ PPL!!!!!

Thanks to EVERYONE who tagged and read my posts and walked the walk and talked the talk... whateva that means. Haha... anyways, yupps, enjoying myself. Couldn't update over the weekends coz we went to "Hua Lian". It was cool. THe scenery was AWESOME.

I think overall, we stayed in a record-breaking 3 hotels in just 4 days. WOO~~~ Haha... =P
HMm... HAPPY BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Hurry up and enjoy!!! Only like, 5 days left. Well, enjoy yourselves. Go party your head off and run around naked on the streets. Haha... joking joking. Well, whateva it is, DUN ROT AT HOME!!!!! Heard that JJ?? Haha.... Oh and Alfred, thanks for the thankks for the thanks.. OH WADEVA!!! But you get the last thanks. =P

Yupps, and thanks meimei, for tagging and wishing me a merry christmas. YOU TOO!!! And my jiejie also. ANd my korkor also. WHOA!!! ALL my siblings tagged!!!! Haha..Byezzzz!!!! =)

2006-12-20T17:41:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl~~~

I'm in Taiwan now. Well, specifically, my cousin's house. MAN!!! It is HUGE. Like, SERIOSLY huge. Haha... two stories. HMm.. the weather here so far is ok. Not too cold. I'm telling you!!! Last night i took a bath. And I ALMOST FROZE IN THR!!! Sheesh. It's so hard to control the water temperature. One minute it's hot, one minute it's cold. In fact, not even a minute!!! Just a FEW SECONDS!!!

So anyways, having fun here. I heard that tonight we'll be going out and stuff. WIsh i could go to the mountains. The mountains here are REALLY cool. I mean, not the weather cool but as in, it's cool cool. OH, wadeva!!!

Haha... so anyways enjoy yourself. Oh and Jia Jun, NO, there is no need to come. Anyways, its already over. Haha... but thanks for thinking about it, yeah? Very nice of you.
HMm... wad else? OH I NOE!!!! The scenery here is great. There's a stadium outside my cousin's house. Cool, huh? =P

2006-12-19T05:13:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone!!! =)

I'm feeling MUCH better. Yupps, now I can safely say that I'm HAPPY!!! YEAH!!!!
Haha... guess i just felt "empty" coz it was quite sudden and surprising that my grandma was now gone. Yupps, but im much better now. I think i've pretty much gotten over it.

Anyways, we had her funeral today. Than after she was "burnt" or "cremated", we threw the ashes into the sea. Yupps. THE BOAT RIDE WAS SO FREAKIN AWESOME!!! I mean, not saying that i was happy. haha... but STILL?!? The ride back was BUMPY!!! WOOHOO!!! Hahaha.... but my dad gets seasick easily. So his face was really wierd. LOL.

Hmm... not much else to say. 2moro i'll be going to Taiwan. Can't wait. I mean, if i didnt get to go, i would be REALLY disappointed. LOL. So anyways, happy holidays!!! OH!!! WAIT WAIT WAIT!!! And BIG, HUGE thanks to vanessa voong, who was always there for me. Yupps, thanks sissy man. ;)

2006-12-17T20:33:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl.

Hmm... i feel abit "empty" now. Like, no emotions. I'm not happy, nor sad. Not excited, no bored. Yupps, its wierd. Oh well.... hmm... i think i've never felt like that b4. It's SOOO wierd. haha....

It's quite confirmed that im going to Taiwan on wednesday. Yupps. Honestly, i really dont noe wad to say. haha.... this is the first time i feel so emotion-less and.... empty?!? I dont noe. It's like, i dont feel anything. NOT THAT I'M HEARTLESS. lol. That's a whole different meaning!

It's more like... you dont noe wad to think about, u dont noe wad to do. You're just... empty. Plain and simply empty. Like, you have no more goals to achieve, its as if everything has been done or something. It's so wierd. Yet life still goes on.... hmm... oh well, dont wanna drag about this anymore. Well, thanks for reading. =)

2006-12-17T02:27:00.000-08:00

This song is dedicated to my grandMA. Yupps. My one and only grandma, whom i loved so much. So here u go, grandma, this is for you. =)

You Raise Me Up

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up...
To more than I can be

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up...
To more than I can be

There is no life - no life without its hunger
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly
But when you come and I am filled with wonder
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up...
To more than I can be

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up...
To more than I can be

You raise me up...
To more than I can be

2006-12-16T23:57:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. I'm not going to Taiwan liao.

Oh wait. My mama just came in and told me something. I MIGHT be going next wednesday. But... I'm really sad right now. So i can't feel happy. Seriously, this is not a joke. My grandma... yeah, she.... yeah, u noe. If u dont, than dont bother finding out.

Well, thanks anyway to all my friends out there who were praying for me or encouraging me. But still.... it's hard to accept the fact that she's gone. I mean, oh... never mind. Anyways, just coz I put this on my blog doesnt mean i want to spread the news around. I just wanna show u guys that not everything always goes as you plan. There will definitely be days in your life when you feel absolutely down, and the day just couldnt get any worse, but it does.

If you guys know how to pray, please do for my grandma. Pray that she will be in peace. Yupps, and that my family will be able to forget about this horrible situation soon. Thanks. =)

2006-12-15T22:52:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. Thanks for tagging, u guys (and gals). =)

Anyways, today has been a FANTASTIC day for me. Yupps, went out shopping with my dad. He bought me ice-cream. CAN U BELIEVE IT?!? My DAD, hello?!? Am I dreaming? This is my dad we're talking about here. Hahaa.... but yeah, he did. GO DAD!!! I LUV U!!!! =)

Can't wait for 2moro. We're gonna leave for Taiwan. Hope everything goes well. Now my mum's bugging me about what i should wear to Taiwan 2moro. She says that i have to wear something nice coz I'm entering another country. HELLO?!? What has going to another country got to do with my CLOTHES?!?!? Sheeshh... LOL. She can use the LAMEST OF THE LAMEST excuses sometimes. LOL. Well, I guess i get my lame-ness from my mum too. =)

Well, Christmas is coming. Hope you guys enjoy your remaining holidays. LOL. Trust me, savour every moment of it. When school re-opens, it will be like a living hell. Haha... kidding kidding. But really, enjoy while u can. Yupps, thats all folks! =) Byezzzz.... will miss u guys...

2006-12-15T05:06:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. Guess wad??? My prayers have finally come true. Well, part of it.

My mum says we'll be going to Taiwan. But I'm still quite worried coz my grandma is still going on with the threat. Which is absolutely not good. Yupps, but I'll continue to trust in the Lord. And i wanna thank Alfred, coz he encouraged me too. Well, in the christian way. Meaning he told me to trust in the Lord and stuff. So, BIG THANKS TO U, ALFRED-DO!!!!

Hmm... now im kinda getting excited. LOL. But then again, it doesnt really excite me much. WOW!!! Too much contradiction here. lol. Oops... oh well, can't help it. Anyways, thanks to everyone who encouraged me. =)

Oh yeah, since i'll stop learning keyboard, i've decided to get my keyboard teacher, Ms Ho, a goodbye-letter and a present. Aawww.... isint that sweet? lol. But she's cool. SHE ROCKS!!! She's really patient and stuff. Yupps, much better than some of the teachers in our school. =P Yupps, so this part is a tribute of thanks to her. Thanks Ms Ho, for everything. YOU ROCK!!!

2006-12-13T21:47:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLE!!!

Yesterday was Shi Tin'g birthday barbecue party or wadeva u call it. LOL. It was okay. Not bad. But the guys kept "acting cool", except for Ming Shen and Wei Jie. The rest of them just SLACKED the whole time and eat. HELLO?!? They didnt even help. Oh wait, sorry, they did help. THEY HELPED IN EATING!!! THANKS ALOT GUYS. ALOT.

Anyways, in the end we got back at them coz we TOTALLY soaked them with water bombs. MUahahaha... we are evil. XP

Hmm... hope i get to go to Taiwan. Yupps. Not much else to blog about. OHHHh... wait. LOL. DON'T FORGET TO COMPLETE YOUR MATHS HOMEWORK!!!! =) Just a gentle reminder. Oops... maybe not so gentle. But HEY, i AM telling you. LOL. Jia you!! =P

2006-12-11T16:54:00.000-08:00

Haizz....

I am feeling REALLY confused right now. Yupps. Coz my family will be going to Taiwan. But my grandma (my dad's side) won't be going. And i think she has a phobia of being alone or something. So she threatened to kill herself one of the kids (my siblings and i) didn't stay with her. I mean, HELLO?!? A trip to Taiwan to visit our cousins is SO RARE. And i dont wanna stay in singapore just to make my grandma feel "happy and safe"!

I mean, yeah, im filial. But she's TOTALLY going overboard. Right now i really wish i had someone to talk to. Hmm.. anyways, hope my grandma will be able to understand. I mean, threatening to commit suicide?!? That's like sanity. What's more is, she says she'll let the WHOLE church know that she died coz of my family. That's like so reasonable. She's so selfish.

I'm so confused right now. I think i've already gotten my priorities mixed up. I don't know whether i should stay. I mean, my brother and my little sis will definitely not want to stay. I'm ok with anything. Just that i'll be very disppointed if i don't get to go. Yupps, haizz....

2006-12-11T16:36:00.000-08:00

This is the lyrics to the song "I'll remember you" by No Secrets

It has been so long since we have touched

I hope that things are still the same

Hoping they will never change

Cause what we had can't be replaced

Don't let our memories fade away

Keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe that I could do almost anything

You stood right by me through the tears, through everything

I'll remember you

And baby that's forever true

You're the one that I'll always miss

Never thought it would feel like this

I'll be there for you no matter what you're going through

In my heart you'll always be

Forever baby I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared
The tears we cried

You'll always be the sun in my sky

It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday

Even though we go separate ways

You made me believe that I could do almost anything

You stood right by me through the tears, through everything

I'll remember you

And baby that's forever true

You're the one that I'll always miss

Never thought it would feel like this

I'll be there for you no matter what you're going through

In my heart you'll always be

Forever baby I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone

You know that I'll follow

I will be there

Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind

Cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you

And baby that's forever true

You're the one that I'll always miss

Never thought it would feel like this

I'll be there for you no matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be

Forever baby I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

2006-12-10T17:05:00.000-08:00

Heyz!!! LOL. U notice "heyz" is always the first word i use in my posts. It would be against my nature to NOT use "heyz" as an opening. lol.

Anyways, last week was ok. But a new week has started. Yupps, and this sunday I'll be flying off for Taiwan already. Time sure pasts fast. Hmm... i wonder when i should start packing. LOL. For those of you who know me REALLY well, would know that i will either pack really early and be kiasu, or slack and pack it last minute. LOL. Oh well, I'll leave that to my mum to tell me. LOL. She's like some talking alarm clock. "Denise, GO PACK YOUR CLOTHES!!!" That means IT'S TIME. =P

HHmm... nothing much else to say. There's no more training for the rest of this year, so i get to rest. Yupps, nice to rest once in a while. And MY defination of REST is "No hard manual labour of ANY sort, no nagging, house is peaceful, able to read a book in peace, can sleep anytime i want to, no phone calls or sms, able to watch anime or read manga ANYTIME! WOOHOO!!!"

Well, DREAM ON. LOL. That day will never come for me. Oh well, at least this time half of the requirements are there. =P Bye byez!!!

2006-12-07T23:33:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. As usual, there was training today. But today was FUN!!! Coz Ms Li Khoon was there. it was REALLY cool. LOL. We had some selection test thing, and after that we learned how to do slow march.

LOL. U shd have seen us. We looked like penguins trying to walk straight. Hahaha... couldnt stop laughing. But its DIFFICULT. Like, SUPER DIFFICULT. LOL. I really dont noe how the sec 1s will be able to master the slow march on time. Anyways, for the upper sec i guess it was alright. We could pretty much get wad it was and the timing and stuff. But i think the best word to describe today's drill session is FUN!!!!!

=P So anyways, leaving for Taiwan on the 17th of December. Yupps, will miss u guys (and gals) too. LOL. Dun worri, i'll get gifts for u ppl. I wonder wad wld happen if i didnt....haha... u ppl would probably kill me in school... well, kill me verbally. LOL. okz, got to go now. bye byez. =)

2006-12-07T03:22:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. =)

Hmm... just a FEW more days to christmas. Can't wait. =P

Oh wait, that's not a good thing, i gotta buy christmas gifts for u all. LOL.

Kidding kidding. Relax. =P

Anyways, from next week onwards there won't be anymore training. At least not until next year. Yupps, HEY! Gotta enjoy christmas u noe. LOL.

So anyways, i dont noe whether its good or bad. But i feel like changing my blogskin (AGAIN). LOL. But i'm still finding. Yupps, finding a blogskin is hard work. =P

Well, hope you gals (and guys) enjoy ur holidays, alrite? Yupps, bye byez. =)

2006-12-05T17:00:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. FEELING SO HAPPY!! LOL. Dunno why. Oops... i mean don't know why. I have to set an example for my dear friend Jia Jun. He's trying to type good english. =P (the smileys dont count!!!)

Anyway, this week has been pretty good for me so far. The Sec 2s invovled in the Sec 1 CCA display thing will be having a meeting later on. You know, the one where I'm the chairman. MAN!!!! I am SOO..... (undescribably emotion) with my MUM!!! Just this morning my mum was asking me where i was going to go in the afternoon. I said Macdonalds (coz we're having the meeting there). And she said, "Having a meeting at a RESTAURANT?!?". And i was like, WHATEVER!!!

So anyways, she was quite... (undescribably emtion) with the fact that i was so involved in GB. LOL. By now you should have noticed that i have a lack of vocabulary words. LOL. =P Anyway, hope you guys (and girls) continue to have a REALLY COOL AND HAPPY holiday!!! =)

2006-12-03T21:58:00.000-08:00

YO ppl!!! LOL. Yupps, changed the song on my blog. Hmm... sounds abit emo doesnt it? Oh well... lol. It's STILL nice. =)

Anyways, going to Taiwan on the 17th of December. Yupps. LOL. No worries. If i have enough money, I'll buy u guys (and gals) gifts, souveneirs, wadeva u call them. LOL. Yupps, that's partly the reason why i don't intend to watch any more movies, go to theme parks and other unnecessary stuff which requires money. Saving up for the trip.

Hmm... feeling kinda sad lately. LOL. Honestly, it's kinda complicated. And i dun intend to tell u guys (and gals). But no worries though! I am still happy crappy and all that other stuff. LOL. =P

**Special note for bookworms (like PJ, YT, VV, ST): There's this book i'm reading. It's called THRILL RIDE. It's realli cool. You gals might wanna check it out. Yupps, but dun blame me if u go all emo after reading it. LOL. But it's nice. =)

2006-12-03T02:33:00.000-08:00

Yo ppl!!! LOL.

Yupps, FINALLY changed my blogskin. I spent like, FOREVER trying to look for a nice one. LOL. Yupp, and this is the one. The music may sound abit emo. But i think it kinda fits. Yupps. Hope you gals (and guys) like it too. LOL. SEE, NO BIASNESS. =P

2006-12-02T22:37:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl...

Hmm... LOL. So sian. Holidays liao. But not veri holiday-ish. Training is still going on. Yupps, hope to get into the contingent. Anyways, hope you guys (and gals) continue to enjoy ur holidays. =P And have a VERY VERY VERY merry christmas!!! =)

2006-12-01T16:03:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl. I dun think i blogged yesterday. Cant' even rmb. LOL. Anyways, yesterday we had training. It was suppose to be the selection test for the drill competition, but Ms Li Khoon didn't come, so they postponed it to next friday. Just great, gotta worry more. =P

Hmm... the training was ok. But VERY TIRING. HELLO?!? We kept marching around the parade square. I think we covered like, 8km or something. LOL. Maybe even more. Anyways, after that we went for lunch at KFC. We were laughing like crazy. Xin Qi, Evonne, Cecilia and I kept saying "NOOB!!!". LOL. Li Lin and Christine were trying to break theire record for eating the most packets of chilli in one meal.

I think they finished about... 11 packets. Yupps, not bad. For ONE meal. LOL. They are SOOO gonna visit the toilet very often. =P But anyways, yeah, yesterday was a fun day. =)

2006-11-28T17:18:00.000-08:00

Heyz ppl!!!

Yupps, since i have time now, then i'll blog. Hmm... yesterday was the Annual Prefects' Outing. It was FUN. LOL. The food was great, the program went smoothly, yupps, it was awesome. Could see that even the upper secs were having fun. 3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for the PREFECTS!!!! WOOHOO!!!

Lol. Anyways, came home yesterday feeling SUPER tired. LOL. Put alot of effort and energy into that outing. Now i need to put in more. haha... gotta wash some of the stuff. My mum almost KILLED me yesterday when she saw me carrying the stuff that i had to wash. Yupps, the screaming and the shouting and the chaos happened, and then sooner or later, she went to watch tv. Oh well, wad can i say? Mums are like that. =P **aren't they?!?**